It's been a while since I last wrote an entry. I have my own journal na kasi.. Naisip ko, hindi ko na kelangan ipagbulgaran sa buong mundo love life ko. Haha. Since hindi naman din legal, it should be kept as a secret. Weh ulul. Hahaha. Oh well. Dito nalang share ko about sa other stuff. NAGBAKE AKO NG COOKIES.. PALPAK EH! HINDI KO BINASA YUNG PROCEDURE. Mother F! Badtripppp. Haha. Hindi tuloy nagflat yung cookies ko. HAHAHA. Badtripppppp! : : Oh well. Hindi na ko nakakalabas ng bahay, ang main labas ko nalang is pag pupunta ako sa gym or sa Divi. Well hello, commuter na ko. :)) I haven't been with my friends lately, minsan ko nalang din sila makausap. I MISS THEM.
. Huhuhu. Oh well, Bora next week! YAAAAAY. Dami kong makikita dun. Boy hunting na to! Haha. Or... SECRET. ;) Dami kong inoorganize na lakad these days. Haha. Oh well, leadership skills? Nyeh.
BW lunch at Katip then swimming at Fil2(Licah) or Guiang's pad. Not yet sure..
Mga pupunta: Tere Lira Donna Claire Kaye Bets Dea Yas Guiang Huwey Russalie Licah Dani Patty
AHS fashion show models' reunion.. Dinner and inuman either kela Sean or Paul's pad. SEAN PAUL. Yess. HAHA. If di pa kami okay ni Paul by that time baka hindi na ko pumunta. : )
Mga sure na: Marco JC Tobie Raffy Doza Miggy Paul Jonik Bryant Tere Iana Pam Iris
Mga dapat sabihan: Karla Les Flo Ignacio Janna Crescent Tin Chuckie and other male models who i don't remember
YAAAAY. : ) Binabalak namin ni Mara na matutulog kami sa Sofitel this summer. :) Who wants to join us. MAYAMAN TAYO.
Time to blog! Haha. : ) Last Friday, Shacka bonding! Nagmeet kami sa Him5 ng 330 then off to Baello's pad at 4. Food trip lang, mukang naka 2 ice creams kami in a row eh. After bumili ng isa, bili pa ulit. Pag kasama talaga sila, walang pakelamanan kung tumaba man or hindi. Haha. Grabe i missed them so much!! Tumawag si Lira sa mom ko para ipaalam ako na overnight nalang ako dun, PUMAYAG! Eh nung ako nagpaalam hindi naman. Sabi kasi ng mom ko mas gusto niyang friends sila Lira, so yun.. Haynako. Tawanan lang and reminisce. Haha. Tinignan namin autograph book ni Baello eh, kawindang! HAHA. Isse ang nickname ni Claire and LiWa naman kay Lira. HAHA. Steady lang. Pag sa UST na kami ni Lira nagaaral.. -- "LASLAS!! RAKRULZZZ" Haha. Kawawa naman kami. Huhu. We went na sa Underarrest then sumama muna ako kela Skye sa bahay ni Inigo kasi may inuman kasi birthday ni Moses! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :D Hinatid ako ni Skye sa condo ni Baello ng mga 330am.. Usap lang with sila Lira til 5am. Tapos tulog na. Super sikip sa bed, musta naman yun.. 5 kaming nagsiksikan. Isang position lang dapat. HAHA. We were planning to go to EK pero mukang tinamad kaming lahat eh. Chill nalang, nuod ng news, at mag make-up. HAHA. Nagswim din kami, napakalamig ples. Haha. Then we went to Petron na.. HAHA. Yun nalang yun. Ang saya 24 hours kong kasama Shacka.. Sayang hindi kami kumpleto.
---- SERIOUS POST NA ----
Grabe, i missed hanging out with Shacka. Parang it's a different feeling.. Super saya ko! Yun lang yun. Thinking na iba na kasama ko pero sila magkakasama padin, pero pag kami magkakasama parang normal lang. Eto talaga yung group of friends ko na i can consider TRUE FRIENDS. Kung anu-ano pinaguusapan namin, anything under the sun. I just realized, why did i take them for granted? I had the best but i still chose to go with the group i thought i'd be happy with. Wala lang. It's just sad na lumipat ako.. Haynako. Well, anyway.. I had super fun! Saktong bonding lang talaga. FRIENDS TIL THE END.. :D Nakakalungkot lang din na parang hindi na kami mag bestfriends ni Mich. Mahirap tanggapin pero it's like we have our different worlds na. Compared to dati, parang MICH AND TERE against the "world". Ngayon, ewan. Medyo hindi nga rin kami nagpapansinan nung party. Ewan.. I think she's happier naman kasi with her new set of friends and i have nothing against it. Kung san sya masaya, so be it. Basta all i know is, i'll be here for her no matter what. Nakakalungkot lang din na hindi na kami nakakapagshare sa isat-isa, it's as if i dont know her na nga eh. Hopefully, we'll be close again.. Nagpromise pa naman kami sa isa't-isa na whatever happens, solid parin kami. Pero mukang wala na eh, waley. Madalas hindi na ko kasali sa plano niya.. I don't blame her naman, alam ko at some point nag kulang din ako. Pero ewan.. Oh well. Whatever happens, nandito parin ako for her :D I wish her the best. Anyway, we were thinking (Shacka), na dapat once a week magkikita kami. Hello naman, ang layo namin sa isa't-isa. Pero kaya yan! basta gustuhin. HAha. :) I missed Shacka big time! Wala lang. Haha. I loveeeee them.
Another serious part sa entry ko :
So final na talaga yung closure na yun. I was with Shacka when i talked to him.. It was hard, really hard, to let someone I like go. Sakit lang.. Tawag siya ng tawag pero i was hesitant to answer, ewan ko. I need to be strong eh, kailangan ko na talaga lumugar. Masakit na ngayon pero pag tumagal pa baka mas lalong masakit. Pinarealize nga sakin nila Lira na kain pride kapag kinausap ko pa siya. Kasi ilang beses na ba kami "naghiwalay"? Hello, 3rd time na to. Baka nga isipin niya na madali lang naman ako makuha ulit. Pride naman para sakin diba.. or SELF RESPECT nalang. May paraan naman kasi talaga kung talagang gusto niya ko eh pero sorry nalang sakin, hindi niya talaga maiwan gf niya. Kahit ilang beses pa niyang sabihin na sobrang gusto niya ko, wala naman siyang ginagawa about it then para san pa diba?
I deserve to be more than his other girl. Gosh. I super like him, actually more than like na pero tangina kelangan lumugar. I know how it feels to be cheated on, kaya sana hindi ko nalang ginagawa sa iba diba. I WAS SELFISH, i know kaya i'm really sorry that i did that. Ngayon, hindi ko na talaga alam gagawin ko. There's this guy pero ayoko siyang gawing rebounder. Ewan, i know mali pero ewan ko! Matagal siguro bago mawala yung pagkagusto ko sakanya.. Super gusto ko siya, BIG TIME. Ang hirap mag let go, but i must. Tangina.. Bahala na. Kung babalik siya sakin, sana hindi too late. I REALLY LIKE HIMMMMM. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHH! Nakakainis, bakit sa may girlfriend pa? Nakakaasar lang talaga. Oh well. Bahala na talaga. : ( Nakakalungkot lang kasi sanay ako kausap and katext siya lagi pero ngayon, kelangan ko ng umiwas.. Ewan. Nakakagulo ng isip.
**Grabe, 1800 yung bill ko sa sun. Dapat 300 lang kasi! HAHA. 1330 ang texts ko sa globe! Hello naman. HAHA. Tignan natin kung ganun kalaki parin ngayon, haha.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
I was thinking of writing a long entry.. but i'm too lazy to write them all down. Super daming nangyari yesterday! Shiiiit. Balance of nature na ba? : )
Ginanahan na ko bigla. I was too preoccupied kanina eh. So there.. We have 4 more academic days while everyone else will have their
last set of exams this week. Quite unfair right?.. Oh well, that's how the wheel turns. Ano? Haha. We're done with our IP, papers, and other long tests. I still need to prepare for our debate on Thursday.. Tsktsk. Bahala na si Batman.
OKAY. TINAMAD NA KO BIGLA.
eto nalang ----->
I MISS HIM. AFTERNOON PERSON AKO EH : )Guy 1 *I told myself wag magpadala sa mga nangyayari, cause malinaw naman na hindi ako yung
'true love' niya. NADALA LANG.. Last night, he apologized sa nangyari samin dati and he told me he missed me. Well, honestly, namiss ko din siya.. namimiss padin. Haynako. Pero it's about time na nag sorry na talaga siya sa nangyari dati pero okay naman na kasi. Friends na nga kami nung girl eh, all G na. Forgive and forget.. Oh well. We hugged and kiss sa cheeks. Haynako.. Sabi ko hindi ako magpapadala eh, pag gising ko okay pa ko. Pero nung naisip isip ko na, grabe hindi okay eh.. simple gestures lang, nafall nanaman ata ako ulit?.. Gusto ko pa siya, kahit sobrang tagal na nun. Ewan ko.. Or should i just stop liking him nalang kaya? Ewan ko. May pag-asa naman sakin eh, if ever. ? Ewan. I never imagined na magiging ganun ka "sweet" pa kami after namin magbreak. Ohwell.. *
Guy 2 *This is about another person naman : Yun nga, i miss him! Pero nakakalungkot lang kasi na we needed to end things na. I like him, well more than like na eh. Love ko na siya kahit 10% palang. Hindi ganun kagrabe.. Pero gets? Ganun parin eh. Haynako.. I don't know what to do na. Super attached kasi ako eh. I'm not closing my door to future relationshiop with him. Yun nalang yun.. : ) *
Friday, February 08, 2008
I just had too much. I won't ever take a glimpse into my past.. AGGH. New life, Tere... NEW LIFE.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
This sleepless night left me wondering on things that happened to me this past few months.. People just come in and out of my life leaving no trace at all, i tend to ask myself.. what happened to me? Have i changed or is it just because i have taken them for granted. For years of living, this i think is the hardest part of it. I don't know who my real friends are.. Taking a journey to the past, i realized that
i had the best set of friends that anyone could ever have.. The ones who'll be there when you're really at your lowest, who'll you'll have fun with eventhough you have nothing to do, etc. I wonder, why did i ever leave them knowing that i'll be more than happy just having a special bond with them. I took a risk when i left them for another group of friends, the ones who i think are just there when you're having a good time but will never be there when you have problems. I'm not saying that they aren't for real or anything, there are some close friends from this certain group who i know will always be there for me no matter what. but talking about it as a whole, we aren't that SOLID set of friends. We talked about this a million times, if we're just friends because of the 'title' or we are REALLY friends til the end. Until now, i don't know. I don't regret naman that i joined this group, the only thing is that i left my real friends for this one. I mean, you get the whole idea. Because of this leaving shits, i lost my other friends din but i think this brought me to the point that i knew who's real and who isn't. But this early, who am i to tell? I've met so many people that i know i wouldn't meet if i stick with the old one, but that doesn't matter at all... again, just having them will be more than enough. Hmm. Oh well, i learned a lot from them and the moments we had were something to be remembered and cherished. Moving on, with my past relationships.. i don't know, i don't regret any of them it's just that now, i'm having a hard time picking the right guy for me. I've been so gago after my last relationship.. I had 6 guys in 2 months, eversince we broke up and i know that isn't good. I haven't found myself the RIGHT GUY, or is it just that i took them all for granted thinking that there are lot of other guys who'll come into my life. I know out of that 6 guys, 3 of them were for real.. they're the ones who i know will be different from the others but what did i just do? Nothing... I just left them hanging. This is not right. I've been trying to figure out why things happen this way it left me to an answer..
I try hard to look for my 'ideal guy' and get blinded by it that i don't consider the guys who were just infront of me. Why am i still searching? Why can't i settle with what i have?.. That's the problem,
how can i settle with someone when that someone doesn't really exist. And yea, another problem is that
when i have a SOMEONE... i'm not not contented and eventually, i will have SOMEONE ELSE. So, you get it.. Why do i play with them? So there, karma found me.. not becuase my ex played with me but this whole idea of a messed up life, it's karma. Well, i promised myself that IF i had a new guy, i wouldn't do to him what i've done to my other pasts.. Really, life is a winding road.. why can't i just straighten up my own road. Actually, i realized that i can.. if and only if i deal with my mistakes and hopefully change for the better. Everything really happens for a reason.. Oh well, grabe thinking of what happened to me and my life.. naisip ko na i've been living a 'patapon' life this past few months. I don't study, i just go with the flow. I'm too laid back to do something productive. I don't go to mass and i don't pray, lack of faith really answers every questions i have. I don't listen attentively to what my heart's been telling me, when i want something.. i just do it, not minding the people i know who'll get hurt or as they say 'matatapakan mo'.
I'm too brave to do what i want but I lack courage to deal with the consequences. I want a new life, i want a new Tere. This, i think, is the right time to right what's wrong. It's time to change my messed up life.. it's the right time to be
SOMEONE.
-- So there, expect changes. I'll take one step at a time. It aint easy for me, really.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
I really don't want to go into details about what happened last night. Nakakalungkot lang. LOSER. Uhh, last minute back-out sa modeling.. Well actually hahabol dapat ako pero when i got there di na ko umabot. Last set na, sari sari. When I got there, kala ko manunuod nalang ako pero abot pa pala so tumakbo kami ni Ignacio sa dressing room para magpalit pero twas too late. Haha. Oh well, Iana and Miggy won the title "Model of the Year". Congratulations! Got free Nike shoes! Super badtrip ako talaga dun sa ARIANNA na 2nd year takte. Aggh. Nakakabv. Oh well, kita kits nalang sa school :> Hmm. About the debut naman, nung dumating ako.. nagulat sila. They were expecting kasi na wala ako and all kaya nga inaway away nila ako eh. Medyo naging okay na lahat then chitchat tapos yun.. Dumirecho na ko sa fashion show na hindi ko naman naabutan. : Ayoko ng isipin! HAHA. Sayang mga practices ko pero okay lang, nagkaron naman ako ng new friends!
After nung fashion show, kain and kulitan lang. Stayed with Nika Ignacio Iris Jonik Paul sa Ateneo til 12.. HAHA. Super nakakatawa si boy tulak/nika. Waley.. "I'M SO EMO. EVERYONE'S LEAVING ME" Yun naman eh. Usap lang with Paul then hinatid na niya ko sa Ewood ng mga 130 kasi nasa Gweilos yung cousins ko. Uminom lang ako ng 2 beers, medyo nahilo kasi mabilisan. Haha. Dapat sana sa Cantina nalang uminom since nandun yung spec events na mga tao diba. Masaya. Haha. Oh well. Hyper mode with cousins.. Went home sa Fil2 at around 3am. Tulog na ko after nun.....
MODELS AND SOME SPECIAL EVENTS PEOPLE : WE'RE GONNA GO OUT NEXT SATURDAY! "PRACTICE" ULIT? HAHA. Bonding daw.. Wow, infairness close na kaming lahat. Haha. Except sa mga ibang tao na nagpapadeliver ng Mcdo. Haha. Waley!
I still need to study for Math Quiz and CL longtest. : WOW
