It's been months since I last updated this site. Anyhooots.. I'm only doing this 'cause I'M
SOOOO BORED. I don't even know what to write. Hahaha! Updates nalang.. Hmm okay.. so now I'm single for 6 months.. (since my last REAL&OFFICIAL relationship). So what's new? I have a new guy. YEHEEEES. Actually, he's not really new. We had
something special when I was in 1st year HS but that time it was a bit complicated.. We also had 'something' back when I was in 3rd year HS but.. (there will always be a BUT. haha!) I kindov left him hanging kasi I chose to be with another guy considering that he was there when my life was so fucked up. Ganun ako ka-gago NOON. Imagine this ha, I asked him("new" guy) to be my promdate.. everything was going alright UNTIL after i met the OTHER guy(now my ex-bf). Let's just name them Mut(new) and Tum(ex). So there.. Tum and I started going out then the next thing I know, we were somehow already going steady. That left me with no choice but to cancel my invitation to Mut. It was not the best idea that I had but shit happened. Hahaha. So for two years, Mut and I didn't talk that much. As much as I wanted to talk to him and explain the shit that happened, I couldn't 'cause I was too embarassed for the shit I've done. I just chose to let it all pass and at the same time, I was wishing that he will just forget about it. As expected, we went our separate ways.. He had a girlfriend, who surprisingly was a close friend of my friend. I remember meeting her once during our modeling practice for Ateneo HS fashion show. Ehhh bat ba napunta sa girlfriend niya. So waiiiit!! Anyway.. after Mut, the guys that I've dated were.. how will I put it in one word?.. They were uhhm.. Different? Different in a negative way. They just fall under these categories -- GAY, PLAYER, PERVERT, and SUPERMUSHY(worst ever). Haha! I have the worst luck ever. Haha. No regrets! I learned how to be more alert with guys. Hahaha. For the effin record, most of the guys that I've dated were GAAAAY. :)) Faaaak. Anyway. Mut is different from all of them okaaaay. All this time I was looking for the right and perfect guy.. and I just realized now that that guy is the guy that I've taken for granted for the past four fucking years. How stupid can I get? Hello. Mut was just always in front of me but I insisted to look elsewhere. Waley the world. So yea, now I'm pretty sure with who I should fall in love with. I'm just afraid with the fact that I left him twice, baka this time I'll be the one who'll be left hanging. :l Aggh. I really really really really really really like him.. He's different from the others. He makes me feel special.. Ewan ko. Iba talaga. He's concerned pero he's not the type na hanggang salita lang? EWAN KO. My whole family likes him.. (sister, cousins, most especially my MOM and MAMALOLA) I feel comfortable with him as in parang friends pero HINDI KASI FRIENDS. Hahaha. My friends like him.. My family likes him.. I like him.. Actually
I'm already falling for him. This is my
THIRD CHANCE with him..
Will this be my lucky third?
Mut's real name is Raph Santiago
