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Friday, November 30, 2007
----COULD THIS BE OUT OF LINE?----

Shit. There's a guy that I like but i don't know, it's super labo. I can't call it landian sa text cause really, we were texting lang talaga.. We don't ask each other naman if we ate na or other shits like that. Pero ewan. I really like him.. Masaya ako whenever magkatext and magkachat kami. Super kwela.. We were supposed to watch a movie pa nga last Thursday pero he suggested next week nalang kasi he doesn't have a car that time. I mean, i don't know if he likes me or ewan. I don't want to assume.. Pero i like him, like him. I like him.. SERIOUSLY.


Wednesday, November 28, 2007
REALITY STRIKESSSS!!! Tangina. Tangina talaga... It's about him, yes HIM, INIGO DULAY. I dont know how to start this pero eto yun.. I called him kanina to tell James na magpakatino na siya.. and he was like "CHONG. O BAKIT? MISS MO NA KO?" Fucker. Yea, i miss you and i admit it. I talked to him na parang friends lang telling him to talk to James and all those shits.. tapos he kept on telling me na AKO NALANG MAGSABI. Okay okay.. I felt that he was pushing me away. I'm so fucking stupid! In the first place, why did i call him nga ba?! Bakit kelangan ko iparating sakanya eh i can tell James' other friends what i want to tell James. Yea i admit that i text him about sa modeling and shits and about james-mich.. just for the sake na KATEXT KO SIYA. Fuckerrr. The only question i keep asking myself now is, WHY? Bakit ako pa naghahabol eh siya naman yung nang gago. Why do i still keep on pushing myself sakanya eh puta tinataboy na nga ako.. WHY AM I STILL NOT OVER HIM, considering that he's OBVIOUSLY over me? Why am i still dreaming that we will get back together when everyone knows that IT WONT REALLY HAPPEN. Why am i still wishing na ako nalang sana girl niya, while he's thankful na im not his girl anymore and he has his FINE SEXY KID with him to go flirt with. WHY?! Why do i still think about him, eh siya nga hindi na ko naiisip kahit sandali. Why am i still reminiscing habang siya, he forgot everything na. WHY do i still bother texting him eh siya nga naiistorbo pag tinitext ko siya. Why do i still care, thinking that HE DOESN'T CARE ANYMORE? WHY do i still do things just to see him when HE HIDES FROM ME JUST SO THAT HE WON'T SEE ME. WHY DO I STILL BOTHER?? WHY?? AM I THAT STUPID NA TALAGA? NOw, he's everything to me.. and i am NOTHING TO HIM. I AM JUST ONE OF HIS EX GIRLFRIENDS.. I AM JUST PART OF HIS PAST. WHY DO I STILL BOTHER?? Why am i still head over heels sakanya when he's head over heels over head over heels over head over heels with his girl?? WHY DO I WANT TO SEE HIM HAPPY WHEN IN FACT HE REALLY DOESN'T DESERVE TO. WHY do i still love him considering what he did? WHY?!?!? Why do i still have our pictures in my phone and pc, eh sya inerase na niya lahat. WHY DO I STILL HAVE HIS MESSAGES EH SIYA NGA BURADO NA LAHAT. Why do i still have our picture as my desktop wall paper when his is that microsoft xp thingy. WHY AM I STILL NOT OVER HIM?? WHY DID I LOVE HIM SO MUCH EH SIYA NGA HE JUST LOVED ME FOR THE SAKE OF LOVING ME. WHY DID I GAVE HIM EVERYTHING WHEN THAT EVERYTHING FOR HIM IS ACTUALLY NOTHING?! WHY DID I CHANGED MY GAME FOR HIM EH SYA NGA, HE STILL PLAYED HIS GAME WITH ME? Why am i wasting my time writing all these crap eh he won't even try to do the same thing. Why do i still live in our past while he's living in his present?? Why did i take him seriously when he just played with me? Why am i still in love with him when we all know he's already out of love. Why am i undergoing this shit while he's having the time of his life? WHY do i still do things for him to like me when he's already sick of me?? agaiiinn.. WHY DO I STILL KEEP ON PUSHING MYSELF CONSIDERING THAT HE DOESNT WANT/NEED/LOVE/LIKE ME,, HE'S PUSHING ME AWAY.

Why talaga diba? Ewan ko.. Now i keep on fixing things between James-Mich-Andi.. Im helping Kate with There and Verona.. When sarili kong problema at buhay hindi ko maayos. Sa sobrang kagustuhan kong maging masaya at mging okay sila, nakakalimutan ko sarili ko. Puta. Back-off na ko sa lahat. Now, i'm just really pissed.. with myself. and JAMES. Tangina. TANGINA TALAGA! Di lang si mich ginago niya eh, pati nadin kaming mga kaibigan ni mich. He keeps on telling us na he loves her tapos ano ano nababalitaan ko? I wont even write it all down here. Human rights kumbaga ni Verona. Tangina talaga. I NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE. SUPER DOWN NG FEELING KO NA I CANT TALK TO ANYONE BECAUSE MAY SARISARILI DIN SILANG PROBLEMA. Tangina talaga. Tangina.. HAY POTA! Eto lang masasabi ko kay james eh "I was a friend to you, i treated you as one of my closest friends and what do you do? Lie about things? THE HELL. I helped you with mich pero puta while i was helping you, you were telling shits to *. The fuck? Now im wondering, were you really true to me/us, your friends or everything was just a lie? Fuck that. I EXPECTED MUCH FROM YOU. And you were wrong when you told me na you weren't just a typical guy, cause in fact.. YOU ARE. Be careful with what you do, James.. and i'll make sure na Mich wont have a 2nd thought of having you back. IT WAS JUST TOO MUCH."

FUCKER TALAGA. I THINK IM GONNA EXPLODE

NOW I SHOULD FREE MY SELF FROM ALL THIS CRAP. I SHOULD MOVE ON AND GET A LIFE. HE IS SO NOT WORTH IT. GUYS ARE JUST PAIN IN THE ASS.. syempre except * hehe. WELL ANYWAY, I'LL MAKE SURE NA I WONT TEXT HIM OR CALL HIM OR CHAT WITH HIM. I WONT MAKE THE FIRST MOVE. THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME ILL BLOG ABOUT HIM. I SHOULD GET OVER HIM CAUSE OBVIOUSLY, HE'S OVER ME AND NOW.. HE'S ALL OVER HER GIRL.. LITERALLY. FUCK THAT SHIT MAN. FUCK IT HARD.


Sunday, November 25, 2007
I know what the answer is.. I NEED TO MOVE ON. Wala nang mababalik.. and it breaks my heart even more. Oh well. Masaya na siya sa Rockwell with his girl eh, kahit sabi nyang wala silang thing. Oo, affected parin ako and i dont know why. DUH baka kasi mahal ko pa. Oh well.. Got to move on. IIWASAN KO NA SIYANG MAKITA, IIWASAN KO NG ITEXT SIYA, IIWASAN KO NANG MAGPAKITA SAKANYA. Tama na paghahabol, muka na kong tanga. Obvious naman na ayaw na niya ako eh.. Hayy. Sorry.. I need to move on, if you're planning to balikan pa ko.. DO IT. Hehe. Pahabol pa eh. pero wala nevermind.. Hayy. Bahala na kung anong mangyari. Deyngit. Di nalang ako maghahabol habol. Tama na. Muka na talaga akong tanga. KKK.

I should be happy.. but not with him..


USTET- Finally over!! No more entrance exams! Bye bye reviewers. Hehe. Hello results! Shit naman, sana naman may pinasahan ako. Bshit! Oh well. Last night i went sa party ni Martin. It was okay. Medyo OP kasi lahat sila artista, kasama ko lang si Pam and Ganda. :p Pero they're friendly. PAYAT PALA SA TOTOONG BUHAY SI ROXANNE GUINOO and KARLA H is so pretty. Wala lang. Starstruck na ko nito? Haha. I arrived home at around 1am. Slept mga 2am na.. Woke up at 5am then off to MANILA at 6. Bern Juls Jv Moses Inigo and I are supposed to meet up sa mcdo. Pag dating ko dun, andun na Bern and Juls.. Si Jv sumabay kay Inigo and as usual, late kasi tagal tagal mag ayos nung baboy. SHET I SAW MIGUEL NANAMAN. K. HAha. Tapos yun, off to st. raymunds. The exam was.. uh.. EASY. :)) 'What's the opposite of hate? a. enemy b. love c, etc' 'What number is bigger than 52? a. 1 b. 5 c. 78 d. 34'.. Yung mga ganyan. HAHa. Pinagkukuwentuhan pa namin nila bern na may iba pang nag answer na ENEMY ANG HATE. HAHAHa. Oo nga naman, pag hate mo.. enemy mo. HAHA. ;p Grabe, i missed miguel. Wala lang. Haynako.. Pero hindi na katulad dati na inuutus utusan niya ko na 'dito ka nga!' 'wag kang magulo, nakakahiya'. Nakakamiss lang. Hay nako.. Naaawa na ko sa sarili ko. I mean ako talaga yung humahabol sakanya. Parang sinasabi ko na stinstalk ko siya then sabi niya kasi baliw, sabi ko 'baliw sayo'. HAYNAKO. Bat ba ganun? Ayaw na ba talaga niya. WAla lang, malapit na ko gumive up.. and pag ako gumive up. Wala na, there's no turning back. ACHECHE. HAha. Pero parang wala na kasing babalikan eh and parang muka nakong tanga na pinagpipilitan ko sarili ko sakanya.. Getting to know each other na sila nung girl, kami forgetting each other na. Aggh. :( Hay nako.. I don't know what to do. SABIHIN MO NA NGA LANG SAKIN, AASA PA BA KO O HINDI. Parang ang gago noh? Ako na nga ginago, ako pa yung umaasang magbalikan pa. :( I just miss him. I miss hugging him, kissing him, and holding his hand.. I miss him. Magiintay pa ba ko. Hayyy. :'c


Saturday, November 24, 2007
Okay.. Hmm. So i'm quite disappointed. Break-up season na ba talaga? Parang ewan.. Sayang lahat ng relationships eh. James-Mich, Mara-Bern(on and off), Jeff-Mack, Tere-Inigo, etc.. Oo, nasasayangan lang ako sa lahat ng relationships kasi parang feeling mo okay lahat then with just one blink of an eye wala na agad. I mean, tangina diba? Why would something start when eventually, it'll end din naman.. Ano yun? For experience?.. Tss. We invested sa relationship pero sa huli parehong malulugi lang din. Sana once you fall IN love, you'll never fall OUT of love. Life is so unfair talaga eh. Kung kelan mahal na mahal mo na, tsaka mawawala. Haynako.. Bat ba ko nagiging ganito? Bitter? Ewan.. May boylets/girlet naman pero pucha, i still miss him. Bat ganun? kahit isang beses... hindi man lang niya ko namimiss? Is it because he's happy na with THAT kid? or dahil marami rami narin sila. Ewan ko.. I kept telling myself, i'm moving on.. wherein in reality, in really not. Napapakilig ako ng sobra ng iba pero iba parin eh. Hay, ngayon naiinggit ako kay Janlo-Raia. After a long time, they got back together.. Ngayon ayoko nang umasa kasi sinasampal nalang sa muka ko na he's over me and he's happy with someone else. If hindi man lang niya ko balikan, i hope yung next boyfriend iba na talaga.. hindi yung tipong boyfriend who takes me for granted. I miss him so much.. really.

Pumunta ako ng practice for fashion show yesterday since last year narin naman. I was surprised to not see him there.. Inexpect ko kasi na magkikita kami, i want to see him.. tapos casual talk shits. Ewan feel ko ayaw niya ko makita at iniiwasan niya ako. AGH. Pero oh well.. Hindi naman sa gusto ko siya maging partner sa fashion show pero gusto ko magsama lang din kami kahit as friends lang. Haynako.. Anyway, ang kupal ng director! I have a batchmate from MC and he was just talking with her bf. Then pinahiya sila nung kupal na director telling them na wag maglandian blabla, pinaakyat pa ng stage at dun daw mag landian! WTF diba? He's not in the position to do that and hello, they weren't doing anything! Meron ngang naghoholding hands eh tapos sila they were just talking to each other masama na ba yun? He even asked what school she's from tapos grabe na siya makapag generalize. Whatever. Hindi naman siya professional magayos ng fashion show eh! MUKA NGA LANG SIYANG TRAINER SA GYM. Aaandd mahiya naman siya sa suot niya. Does he think we will respect him as a director kapag nagsuot siya ng ganun at nag act siya ng ganun? You might wonder what he was wearing, he's wearing this kind of sando that guys use when they go to the gym.. Yea, he's a show off. He wants us to see that he has muscles. WHATEV. Tapos his long hair was all over his face. Kapag pawis na pawis siya, kadiri talaga itsura. Parang kakagaling sa sex na ganun. Nyeta, EWW. Super ang kupal talaga.. He thinks siguro na he's in the position to do that. Mali talaga eh. Oh well. My partner pala sa fashion show is Jec. Whoever he is. GRABE ANG PAYAT NA NI JAMO! HAHAHA. Nanibago ako eh, oh well. Hmmmm. Sinundo kami ni Shelly ni kuya Bry sa lasalle then off to Katip! Sheet feel ko mamatay ako sa pagddrive ni kuya bry eh! BV! :)) We ate sa flaming wings.. Nilibre ko si kuya bry para bayad dahil sinundo niya kami. Drews after that tapos condo nila Kuya bry. Wow, kapatid ng bestfriend ko kasama ko hahaha. Pusoy dos lang then dumating yung friends ni kuya bry, girl-next-door. EXIT AKO PAPUNTANG ROOM, nose bleed eh! :D It's all G.

I want him back......... :(


Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Okay. So here's the thing.. Carla got mad/asar/inis at me for what i wrote sa past entry ko(i erased it na). I wrote daw kasi na nung kami ni inigo she told me na she wants me back.. Here's the thing, i can't even remember na i wrote that pero i saw it nga and then BOOM. Sinulat ko nga talaga. I am sorry if i exaggerated things but really, im not sure whether she told me that or not.. Pero sabi niya hindi so, i am sorry. That time nga naman kasi we were showing each other na we still like ang isat isa. We flirted, yea. PERO eto nga, i'm not sure if may sinabi man siya sakin o wala kasi why would i write such thing diba? Pero kung wala talaga, i am REALLY sorry for what i did. Sorry sorry.. I'm not making yabang naman or something that time siguro iba lang talaga pagkasulat ko nun like instead of showed, i typed said. But who knows diba? Nobody's 100% sure about it kasi halel, it's 5 months ago na. Pero kung sabi ni carla na wala talaga siyang sinabi, edi i am really sorry that i wrote that. Kupal na kung kupal pero.. wala. Nevermind. Kanina kasi parang it was done on purpose. You know what that was. I'm not that stupid naman, alam ko kung may kupalan na nangyayari or wala. Oh well, nakupalan lang siguro sila sakin. I just need to accept it.. Next time nalang siguro if sinabi na okay lang talaga, sana totoo naman na okay na at hindi yung sinisignalan pa yung isang tao blabla. Basta i don't want to assume. Well anyway, ang puno't dulo din naman nito ay ako. Sorry.. Sorry talaga sa ginawa ko. Sorry sorry sorry. Sincere talaga ako. Sana wag nalang ganun. SORRY. OKAYYYY. This day was fun all the waaaaaaay. Morning super good mood kasi i received my permit na for USTET. Eto sched ko : 8am-12nn , St. Raymund's building, Rm 212. Nung nalaman kong morning ako steady lang, pero nung nalaman ko na St. Raymunds ako.. SHOCKS. Napaisip ako and nasabi ko sa sarili "Shet. Sa pagkakaalala ko, building to ni miguel ha?" Okayyyy.. Di ko alam rereact ko. So i texted him tapos yun, pareho kami ng sched and bldg but different rooms. KILIIIG. HAynako, this MAJOR CRUSH is MAJOR WORKING. :)) Para lang siyang crush ko na di ko maaabot. Oh well. I'm okay with that.. atleast KILIG FACTOR pag nagrep siya sakin kahit konti lang. TAPOS syempre tagakan nanaman with all the tagak's! tapos nagtext si Enzo. Apir! Enzo and I are friends na dati pa.. We met sa Bulacan nung bday celeb ni Janica and her sister. So yun, we're friends. Haha. Nagkakitaan kami sa Katip kasi papunta siya sa Drews tapos yun kita-kita. Haha. Tagal na talaga since last kami nagkita, infairness tumangkad siya! HAHA at sabi niya sakin.. lumiit leeg ko. HAHAHA tangina naman. SORRY HA :)) PEro matagal na kasi naming biruan yun. Sabi pa niya i should walk na nakastraight body daw and chin up. Okay kokey. Sorry po kuya ha? :)) Ayuuun. Usap-usap. Kwento kwento.. :) Wala naman akon intention sakanya ha. BACK OFF ako.. may GF din naman kasi eh. Syempre is should act what i preach diba? Yun. Behave behave. Oh well. Tapos nasa starbucks ako with sila Jim, Kirt, Anjo, and Nico. New friends! Tapos may magsyota kasi na nakaupo sa starbucks na SUPER BATA, di naman super pero gets mo na. Bet namin mga 11 or 12. Yung guy pa may hawak na bible. HAHAHA so out of curiosity, we made a plan. Papasign namin sila sa isang paper para kunwari movement for something.. They came up with SAVE THE DOLPHINS. (Naalala ko nga yung parang kela Eds eh) Tapos yun, we signed then lumapit si Nico sakanila asking kung pwede sila magsign tapos lalagyan dapat ng name age signature. HAHAHA LAUGHTRIPPPP!!!!! :)) We found out na they were just 13 years old. WOW. Sweetums ha. Wala lang. SUPER FUN DAY. Met new friends.. Jim invited me to their inuman sa white plains on Friday.. Eh, shy type. Hahaha. I'll ask Andi nalang. Oh well. :)

--OKAY MAY KINWENTO SAKIN SI VEN. TUNAW NA KOOOO. SHEEEET IM SO HAPPY. TAPOS MAY TINEXT PA SI * SAKIN.. WALA. TUNAW NA TALAGA AKOOOOOOOOOOO!!! WAAAAAAAH


Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Score Range // QI



200-330 Very Poor

331-379 Inferior

380-427 Below Average

428-475 Low Average

476-523 Average

524-571 High Average

572-619 Above Average

620-668 Superior

669-800 Excellent

Subtest Standard Score
ENGLISH - 569
MATHEMATICS - 681
SCIENCE - 556
INDUCTIVE REASONING - 569

General Scholastic Aptitude
Standard score- 606
Percentile Rank- 86

Okay. Shet im so happy with the results of my CSAT. 86% rank ko sa buong batch.. That means i'm part of the HIGHER 14% and yung 86% yun yung mas mababa sakin. ANNNDDD Excellent ako sa Mathematics. Walang bayad yan ha. Haha. Oh well. This day was a uber happy day. I don't know why. Super good mood lang.. Im just thinking about my crusheSSSS. HAHA. Oh well. Last night i sent Inigo a super long text message, 12 pages siya actually. I told him that i accept him as my friend, i apologized din sa nagawa kong dirty deeds din nung kami. Hehe. Di siya nag-iisa. Oh well, i am moving on.. THERE'S NO TURNING BACK BITCHES. HEEHEHHEE. Super good mood talaga. Shocks. Well anyway, may onting problema with my mga kabarkada pero in the end, we fixed it din.. I'm not sure if we totally fixed it fixed it, i just know we fixed it. Hehe. Tapos sarap pa ng kinain ko today.. Bavarian and Bananacue.. I'm a fan of banana kasi, seriously. Oh well. Tapos for dinner, i ate caesar salad then chocolate fondue.. STRAWBERRY AND BANANA. Yumm. Syempre main dish porkchop and monggo. HAHA BAGAY NA BAGAY. But i dint eat yung porchop and monggo, dun ako sa sosyal. HAHA. GV GV GV! :D FIT namin today.. MAsaya naman, nakakangawit mag newspaper dance na may buhat na bata habang sumasayaw. Naman naman, siesta time lang sana yun eh. HAHA. GRABEEE!!! MAY BAGO AKONG CRUSH. Namern namern. HAHa. Si MIGUEL. Awoo awoo awoo! Uy may ganun? Haha. No it's like this, si inigo rin yun pero kinalimutan ko na naging kami.. i mean iniisip ko nalang hindi naging kami and hanggang ngayon kilig factor nalang siya. AND DAMN IT'S EFFIN WORKING. NAkalimutan ko na yung about samin eh. Feeling ko nalang ngayon siya yung crush ko na hindi ko makakalandian dahil hindi ko maabot pero it feels good tangina. When i talked to James nga over the phone then "MIGUEL" said hello. GUUHD! PAra akong ewan na super saya and kinikilig kilig pa. Dengit. Oh well, atleast di ko na siya hinahabol HEHE. MEron pa ko crush, si Sean. OPS. Secret lang eh. HAHA. Pero wala lang, i want an intellectual conversation kasi with someone then BOOM! Ops Sean, Hahaha. Cinompute pa niya/namin kung ilang hours ba talaga ang alloted for mass in a year.. Things got complicated din when we were computing ilang hours ang alloted for school works in a year. SAKIT SA ULO. We dont know how many days a week ba blabla. Basta he's a great guy, that i can tell. ;P Pero hanggang crush lang naman eh, hindi naman siguro ako magugustuhan nun.. PERO matino siyang kausap eh. Hmm sino pa? ENZO . Yea! He's uber cute. NAMERRRN. Kilig na ko. HAha. Hmm who else? BETS.. Wala pareho parin naman kami as before.. Textmates na everyday kaso di ako binilan ng chocolates kanina! HMP! Wala daw money :( Yan tuloy, nawala wallet mo. Ako binilan ko pa nga siya ng mentos and doodoo yesterday eh. HMPPPPP isang text lang binilan ko na agad. OH WELL. Haynako.. wala si mich bukas! im gonna miss her! AAAAAAAAAGGHH. Life must go on without her. Kidding. HAHA. I still dont know kung mag momodel ako sa LASALLE. Magpapaalam pa ko, pero grounded ako eh. Oh well. USTET KO NA ON SUNDAY, GOODLUCK SAKIN.. morning exams ko. OH WELL OH WELL ::

I WANNA SEE SEAN, ENZO, BETS. I WANNA HEAR MIGUEL'S VOICE.
Nako naman.. HAHAHAH TEXT TEXT TEXT. Ulul.


Sunday, November 18, 2007
inigo dulay: grabe na mga blog mo ah.. di na ok eh..
inigo dulay: di mo kailangan sbhn sa mundo ko.
inigo dulay: *ok
Tere Sevilla: ay shet. hindi ko ba naalis ay putangina ay sorry
Tere Sevilla: shet sorry talaga
inigo dulay: di na.. andun na eh..
Tere Sevilla: akala ko iba na. kaya nga sa blogspot ko nalang nilalagay para hindi ka na magalit at konti lang may alam nun eh'
Tere Sevilla: sorry.
inigo dulay: pti private talk natin binulgar mo pa eh.. alam ko na marami na galit skn pero sana wag mo naman idiin!!
Tere Sevilla: so.. why are you mad?
inigo dulay: grabe na eh
Tere Sevilla: freedom of speech. dahil nagmumuka kang tanga? dont you think mas nagmuka akong tanga dun sa ginawa mo?
inigo dulay: cge.. feedom..
inigo dulay: buti nlng meron prin mga taong mas kilala ako...
Tere Sevilla: you dont have the right to get mad. FIRST, i need to let it all out. SECOND, hindi ko naman sasabihin yung mga yun kung wala kang ginawa. THIRD and the last one, i dont care. cause did you care when you were doing those dirty deeds? oo meron ngang mga taong kilala ka.. simple lang naman kasi ginawa mo eh, nagsawa ka dibA? di mo nakasundo ugali ko.. HANAP NG IBA. may rason ka naman eh.
Tere Sevilla: okay na kasi inigo eh. okay na talaga eh.
inigo dulay: o cge.. papatapak nlng ako sa freedom og speech mo
Tere Sevilla: let me correct that.. hindi kita tinatapakan.. now, we're on the same ground.
inigo dulay: ah ganon ba.. o cge
Tere Sevilla: haynako. okay na talaga inigo eh. shets. bakit bakit.. kaka-okay ko lang eh. shet. salamat. ge, mapride ka eh. ako may kaslanan ng lahat na to e. SORRY ha. sorry talaga ha.. ako yung punot dulo neto. SORRY. tangina bat pa kasi ako nagpakamartyr at kinausap ka, wala ka na nga palang pake. shet sorry. di na mauulit. ayaan mo. this will be the last time. sorry.
inigo dulay: di.. ayos lng.. karapatan mo naman yan eh..
inigo dulay: enjoy nlng..
Tere Sevilla: okay!


Just when i thought i was okay, i was really not pala. I talked to him cause akala ko okay na lahat.. just to be casual even sa chat man lang diba? That's what he likes. That's what i gave him. Tapos nakita niya blog ko, magagalit siya? DAMN! I wont write these kind of things naman diba if he dint do anything stupid? Stupid asshole. Sasabihin pa niya na papatapak siya sa freedom of speech. Tangina niya, we're on the same ground. Pasalamat siya sa blog ko lang dinaan? Why can't he try putting himself in my shoes diba? As much as i want to hurt him, i cant cause he doesnt care anymore!!! I cant hurt him emotionally, physically i can.. BUT i wont be the one diba, madali lang iutos yun eh. Tangina. WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM!? Ako parin ba ang mali? Siya na nga nakipaglandian sa iba, siya na nga ang nangaliwa, siya na nga ang nagsinungaling.. AKO PADIN ANG MALI? God damn it. BLOG LANG TO! Wala to sa kalingkingan ng ginawa niya. Utak naman o, please. Nasaktan ako eh, what do he expect? kimkimin ko or idaan ko sa pagpapakalasing? HINDI AKO GANUN KATANGA. The best way is to use this blog to be my outlet.. HINDI NAMAN SIYA MAPAPASAMA SA BLOG KO KUNG WALA SIYANG GINAWANG MASAMA EH. Stupid. Tangina i proved myself right, puta. HE IS SO NOT WORTH IT. Ganun ganun lang naman ang girls sakanya eh.. Pag ayaw na niya, tapon. hanap ng bago.. oo maraming galit sakanya, DAPAT LANG. Alangan naman purihin pa siya dahil sa ginawa niya?? UTAK NAMAAAAAAAAAAAN!!! Which head are you using ba??


I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

Okay.. Last Friday night was uhh.. i dont know? the worst night ever? Actually hindi naman, kasi i enjoyed drinking with my friends.. pero when James and I were getting a cab na, that's the time that i super cried.. Parang dun na lahat lumabas eh. I was busy crying to the point na i can't understand and remember what he was telling me. Hehe. Pero ggrrr I hate myself. I'm going 'gaga' over a guy who's super not worth it, who only thinks about himself, who isn't contented with anything or anyone, and who is a BASTARD. He takes everyone and everything for granted. Can't really imagine why i fell inlove with this guy.. siguro nga kasi you dont pick the person you'll fall in love with. B-shit. Sana meron yung parang sa stepford wives na remote control. Hehe. Kidding, wala namang thrill yun. PEROOOO super naman tong kathrillan na to. Aggh. I need to stop thinking about him. He did stupid things but still, what do i want? I WANT HIM. Everyone knows that i'm hurt.. He's the reason and unfortunately, he's the cure. Pucha, pero i need to move on. But how? Having other guys is not the solution eh. Im hurt and it doesnt mean na i should hurt other people as well. :\ Well wait, i cried my ass home.. I took a bath pa nga before i sleep so that no one will be able to see me cry. Eto pa, i slept in my room! First time.. I accidentally fell asleep while crying, imagine that? 2 hours straight? My mom was mad at me that time din eh kasi she knew that i went to greenhills just to see inigo. SINUNGALING DAW AKO. Mmhmm, that's what i did just to lay my eyes on him. WRONG MOVE. Haynako, pag gising ko yesterday i was super crying parn tapos parang wala akong gana gumalaw and lahat na.. POKER FACE BUONG ARAW! I dint talk to anyone, puro text and chat. Nakkaasar talaga, minsan lang kasi ako magmahal ng sobra kaya pag nasaktan.. sobra sobra. Haynaker. I wasn't able to attend Dana's debut last night cause I AM GROUNDED. Diba? SAya! How will they expect me to be okay?!?! I need my social life! I need to talk to people, i get suici shits whenever i'm alone and yea, im not kidding. It's not a threat, it's the truth. They just cant listen to me!! I hate it. I need something for me to get busy with. Kahit gym man lang, yun nalang eh.. Para mamotivate din naman ako magpapayat at ipakita sa kilay na yun kung sino yung inaasar niyang baboy at mataba. ABURADABI KARAMIE REASI KAMROWJ. - OH MY GOD. That's his language. Hahaha. Kidding. Well anyway, i'm quite okay na. Last night i was supposed to drink with my ate.. Pero i talked to Sean (chat) and he made me realize things that i know i wont realize.. not without his help. Thanks for being there for me. :p Ngayon katext ko lang si Bets, James and Kuya Jer.. Bets got her car na! YAY! Mahahatid mo na ko sa bahay niyan? HAHA. Joke lang. :) I'm quite okay na talaga. I'm looking forward to see my friends again.. NOW IM SINGLE, I DONT NEED TO BE CAREFUL WITH MY ACTIONS. FREEDOOOOOM!!! Well, not having him in my life isn't that bad after all. Come to think of it.. I have time for my friends and myself. I don't need to focus on just one person :p I'll be dating! Yey. I'm not committed to anyone or anything. I'm free. :)

Thanks babe for letting me have this freedom. Now, we can both be happy! :D I loveD you. :)


Saturday, November 17, 2007



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"Take Cover"

She's a liar
It comes to this
All we had 'til now is gone
And I'm the other
Piece to this
Every time I feel this inside
I don't wanna be the one who...

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old

She starts feeling on her own
She makes the city seem like home
All you had for me is gone
I give and I give
But you hope in return
Never thought I'd be the one to burn

Every time I feel this inside
I don't wanna be the one to
I don't wanna be the one who...

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
(Take cover)
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old

Caught you
So take cover
Never saw it comin' so you put me on again
Had you and no other
The game, the lie is getting old
The game, the lie is getting old
Is getting old


I was in GH last night.. I went there to see how Inigo's doing and yea, i just wan to see him. Pero he misunderstood the reason why i went there.. Kala niya magsskandalo ako. The hell? Why would i do that? I told him he really doesn't know me tapos sabi niya "actually, i know you. Alam kong di ka magsskandalo". Eh yun naman pala eh? "Pag galit kasi nakakapatay" Uh, siguro it applies to him.. but not to me. Id rather hurt myself than to hurt other people. Our conversation last night was.. uh.. a waste of time. He was asking me kung ano gusto ko mangyari i wasn't answering cause really, hindi pwedeng mangyari yung gusto kong mangyari eh.. and i know that all he wants is some closure. Then there, i was right. Eversince naman it's his way or the highway eh. He told me not to get mad with that ANJA DE GUZMAN, who wouldn't get mad at her?.. with what she did? Damn. I know Inigo was the one flirting with her BUT she flirted back kahit na alam niyang may gf yung gagong yun. Yea, dineny ako ni inigo as gf pero GANUN BA SIYA KATANGA for her not to know the truth? Kung may isip naman siya and if she really likes inigo, she would tell him to break up with me before she entertains him diba? Kaso hindi eh, bobo eh. I just didn't expect that Inigo would do such thing.. actually.. we all didn't see it coming. Grabe siguro i expected too much. I asked him a lot of times when we were still together if may crush ba siya or may iba, he kept answering WALA, IKAW LANG. Last night he was defending his side pa na hindi naman niya gf blabla, i dint say naman na she's his gf.. siya yung IBA, kahit walang communication sakanila.. SOMETHING's happening between the two of them everytime they're together. Assholes. He's telling me na hindi talaga niya makasundo ugali ko, if di niya nakasundo... bakit nakpag-thing pa siya sakin ulit nung summer? I mean, we already went our separate ways pero bumalik lang cause he showed me he still likes me and he's doing everything for me.. Diba? Ayaw niya ko kasi i'm boyish and hindi ko alam kung kelan ako seseryoso.. Agh, Nagustuhan niya ko dahil ganito ako how come he can't love me kasi ganito ako? Sana hindi nalang ako pumatol. I super regret that i fell for him. I FELL FOR THE WRONG PERSON. I was reading my past entry sa multiply (It just can't be yung title).. and i got this "I am scared that all of this will lead to what we all call "KARMA" where i will be the fool who fell for the wrong person. " Nice. Yung pinaka ayaw ko na mangyari sa lahat, nangyari talaga. I admit i was gago nung first few weeks namin together pero diba? who gets super serious lalo na kung bago palang kayo diba? Basta I know i was gago pero I changed and I know i was faithful na.. Nagkaron ako ng mga crush, pero it's normal.. for as long as we dint do the things they just did. I just don't know what i should feel right now.. Happy? because i knew all about it and di na nagtagal pa(sabi nga ni meli, it hurts to know). Sad? because i did everything i can for the wrong person. Regretful? kasi if i didn't give him a chance, i wont get hurt this much. Aggh, ang dami pa. Gahddd, he's such a player. Ay! I told him pala na i was doubting na he's really crying nung nagchchat kami the night we brokeup.. he told me na he really was crying, sabi pa niya "namimiss kita syempre eh. Masama ba umiyak? Tao lang ako.." sabi ko, "tao rin ba ang tawag mo sa taong hindi nagsisisi sa ginawa niya?" Kasi he said na hindi niya pinagsisisihan lahat ng ginawa niya but he's sad it happened. Diba? Ibang klase. I know i still love him to the point na may mga times na parang nakalimutan ko na lahat ng ginawa niya.. yung ganun. Ewan. I hate it. I have the right naman to get mad eh.. Diba? I got hurt, really really hurt.. Anong gusto niyang mangyari dun? Friends na kagad? Hindi ganun kadali yun, ayoko namang ipakita na im okay kahit na alam kong hindi ako okay with him. Gusto niyang maging casual kami like pag magkita sa parties and all ayos lang, usap blabla.. siguro iniisip niya na may pinagsamahan din naman kami. Hindi ako ganun ka-martyr. Siguro the best thing lang is for us to be 'acquaintance' lang. Ayoko lang talaga na makita din muna yang si Anja kasi mainit talaga dugo ko sakanya.. SOBRA. Haynako. Inigo wants me to find another person.. sabi ko i wont find another person, i'll just wait for that person to come into my life. Ayokong humanap ngayon ng panakip butas kasi hindi naman dahil nasaktan ako, mananakit pa ko ng iba. Hindi ako katulad niya.. Now, kahit sobrang nasaktan ako.. ayoko namang masaktan din si inigo. Regina told me na hindi pa over si Anja sa ex niya.. sana, sana lang.. hindi maging panakip butas si inigo. Tawag lang siguro ng laman yan.. Hehe. Yun lang naman ginagawa nila eh. Pangit na talaga ng reputation niya sa girls.. Sana wala ng magpakagago sakanya, magagago lang sila eh. Hay.

Thanks Vicky for the drink! ANG BAGAL ANG BAGAAAAL!! HAha. Anong isda ang laging basa? HITO. Bakit? Hito ako-oh-oh basang basa sa ulaaaan. Okay ka na? Ako hindi pa. Haha. Gerry's -- Ave, Sel, Alex, Ven, Andi, Mich, Janica, Nike, Carla, Vicky, and Chard. ANG BAGAAAAL. :))


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Ma. Teresa Ysabel Mendiola Sevilla.
4th year Miriam College High School.
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