REALITY STRIKESSSS!!! Tangina. Tangina talaga... It's about him, yes HIM,
INIGO DULAY. I dont know how to start this pero eto yun.. I called him kanina to tell James na magpakatino na siya.. and he was like "
CHONG. O BAKIT? MISS MO NA KO?" Fucker. Yea, i miss you and i admit it. I talked to him na parang friends lang telling him to talk to James and all those shits.. tapos he kept on telling me na AKO NALANG MAGSABI. Okay okay.. I felt that he was pushing me away. I'm so fucking stupid! In the first place, why did i call him nga ba?! Bakit kelangan ko iparating sakanya eh i can tell James' other friends what i want to tell James. Yea i admit that i text him about sa modeling and shits and about james-mich.. just for the sake na KATEXT KO SIYA. Fuckerrr. The only question i keep asking myself now is, WHY? Bakit ako pa naghahabol eh siya naman yung nang gago. Why do i still keep on pushing myself sakanya eh puta tinataboy na nga ako..
WHY AM I STILL NOT OVER HIM, considering that he's OBVIOUSLY over me? Why am i still dreaming that we will get back together when everyone knows that IT WONT REALLY HAPPEN. Why am i still wishing na ako nalang sana girl niya, while he's thankful na im not his girl anymore and he has his FINE SEXY KID with him to go flirt with. WHY?! Why do i still think about him, eh siya nga hindi na ko naiisip kahit sandali. Why am i still reminiscing habang siya, he forgot everything na. WHY do i still bother texting him eh siya nga naiistorbo pag tinitext ko siya. Why do i still care, thinking that HE DOESN'T CARE ANYMORE? WHY do i still do things just to see him when HE HIDES FROM ME JUST SO THAT HE WON'T SEE ME. WHY DO I STILL BOTHER?? WHY?? AM I THAT STUPID NA TALAGA? NOw, he's everything to me.. and i am NOTHING TO HIM.
I AM JUST ONE OF HIS EX GIRLFRIENDS.. I AM JUST PART OF HIS PAST. WHY DO I STILL BOTHER?? Why am i still head over heels sakanya when he's head over heels over head over heels over head over heels with his girl?? WHY DO I WANT TO SEE HIM HAPPY WHEN IN FACT HE REALLY DOESN'T DESERVE TO. WHY do i still love him considering what he did? WHY?!?!? Why do i still have our pictures in my phone and pc, eh sya inerase na niya lahat. WHY DO I STILL HAVE HIS MESSAGES EH SIYA NGA BURADO NA LAHAT. Why do i still have our picture as my desktop wall paper when his is that microsoft xp thingy. WHY AM I STILL NOT OVER HIM??
WHY DID I LOVE HIM SO MUCH EH SIYA NGA HE JUST LOVED ME FOR THE SAKE OF LOVING ME. WHY DID I GAVE HIM EVERYTHING WHEN THAT EVERYTHING FOR HIM IS ACTUALLY NOTHING?! WHY DID I CHANGED MY GAME FOR HIM EH SYA NGA, HE STILL PLAYED HIS GAME WITH ME? Why am i wasting my time writing all these crap eh he won't even try to do the same thing.
Why do i still live in our past while he's living in his present?? Why did i take him seriously when he just played with me? Why am i still in love with him when we all know he's already out of love. Why am i undergoing this shit while he's having the time of his life? WHY do i still do things for him to like me when he's already sick of me?? agaiiinn..
WHY DO I STILL KEEP ON PUSHING MYSELF CONSIDERING THAT HE DOESNT WANT/NEED/LOVE/LIKE ME,, HE'S PUSHING ME AWAY. Why talaga diba? Ewan ko.. Now i keep on fixing things between James-Mich-Andi.. Im helping Kate with There and Verona.. When sarili kong problema at buhay hindi ko maayos. Sa sobrang kagustuhan kong maging masaya at mging okay sila, nakakalimutan ko sarili ko. Puta. Back-off na ko sa lahat. Now, i'm just really pissed.. with myself. and JAMES. Tangina. TANGINA TALAGA! Di lang si mich ginago niya eh, pati nadin kaming mga kaibigan ni mich. He keeps on telling us na he loves her tapos ano ano nababalitaan ko? I wont even write it all down here. Human rights kumbaga ni Verona. Tangina talaga. I NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE. SUPER DOWN NG FEELING KO NA I CANT TALK TO ANYONE BECAUSE MAY SARISARILI DIN SILANG PROBLEMA. Tangina talaga. Tangina.. HAY POTA! Eto lang masasabi ko kay james eh "I was a friend to you, i treated you as one of my closest friends and what do you do? Lie about things? THE HELL. I helped you with mich pero puta while i was helping you, you were telling shits to *. The fuck? Now im wondering, were you really true to me/us, your friends or everything was just a lie? Fuck that. I EXPECTED MUCH FROM YOU. And you were wrong when you told me na you weren't just a typical guy, cause in fact.. YOU ARE. Be careful with what you do, James.. and i'll make sure na Mich wont have a 2nd thought of having you back. IT WAS JUST TOO MUCH."
FUCKER TALAGA. I THINK IM GONNA EXPLODE
NOW I SHOULD FREE MY SELF FROM ALL THIS CRAP. I SHOULD MOVE ON AND GET A LIFE. HE IS SO NOT WORTH IT. GUYS ARE JUST PAIN IN THE ASS.. syempre except * hehe. WELL ANYWAY, I'LL MAKE SURE NA I WONT TEXT HIM OR CALL HIM OR CHAT WITH HIM. I WONT MAKE THE FIRST MOVE. THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME ILL BLOG ABOUT HIM. I SHOULD GET OVER HIM CAUSE OBVIOUSLY, HE'S OVER ME AND NOW.. HE'S ALL OVER HER GIRL.. LITERALLY. FUCK THAT SHIT MAN. FUCK IT HARD.
