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Sunday, November 18, 2007

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

Okay.. Last Friday night was uhh.. i dont know? the worst night ever? Actually hindi naman, kasi i enjoyed drinking with my friends.. pero when James and I were getting a cab na, that's the time that i super cried.. Parang dun na lahat lumabas eh. I was busy crying to the point na i can't understand and remember what he was telling me. Hehe. Pero ggrrr I hate myself. I'm going 'gaga' over a guy who's super not worth it, who only thinks about himself, who isn't contented with anything or anyone, and who is a BASTARD. He takes everyone and everything for granted. Can't really imagine why i fell inlove with this guy.. siguro nga kasi you dont pick the person you'll fall in love with. B-shit. Sana meron yung parang sa stepford wives na remote control. Hehe. Kidding, wala namang thrill yun. PEROOOO super naman tong kathrillan na to. Aggh. I need to stop thinking about him. He did stupid things but still, what do i want? I WANT HIM. Everyone knows that i'm hurt.. He's the reason and unfortunately, he's the cure. Pucha, pero i need to move on. But how? Having other guys is not the solution eh. Im hurt and it doesnt mean na i should hurt other people as well. :\ Well wait, i cried my ass home.. I took a bath pa nga before i sleep so that no one will be able to see me cry. Eto pa, i slept in my room! First time.. I accidentally fell asleep while crying, imagine that? 2 hours straight? My mom was mad at me that time din eh kasi she knew that i went to greenhills just to see inigo. SINUNGALING DAW AKO. Mmhmm, that's what i did just to lay my eyes on him. WRONG MOVE. Haynako, pag gising ko yesterday i was super crying parn tapos parang wala akong gana gumalaw and lahat na.. POKER FACE BUONG ARAW! I dint talk to anyone, puro text and chat. Nakkaasar talaga, minsan lang kasi ako magmahal ng sobra kaya pag nasaktan.. sobra sobra. Haynaker. I wasn't able to attend Dana's debut last night cause I AM GROUNDED. Diba? SAya! How will they expect me to be okay?!?! I need my social life! I need to talk to people, i get suici shits whenever i'm alone and yea, im not kidding. It's not a threat, it's the truth. They just cant listen to me!! I hate it. I need something for me to get busy with. Kahit gym man lang, yun nalang eh.. Para mamotivate din naman ako magpapayat at ipakita sa kilay na yun kung sino yung inaasar niyang baboy at mataba. ABURADABI KARAMIE REASI KAMROWJ. - OH MY GOD. That's his language. Hahaha. Kidding. Well anyway, i'm quite okay na. Last night i was supposed to drink with my ate.. Pero i talked to Sean (chat) and he made me realize things that i know i wont realize.. not without his help. Thanks for being there for me. :p Ngayon katext ko lang si Bets, James and Kuya Jer.. Bets got her car na! YAY! Mahahatid mo na ko sa bahay niyan? HAHA. Joke lang. :) I'm quite okay na talaga. I'm looking forward to see my friends again.. NOW IM SINGLE, I DONT NEED TO BE CAREFUL WITH MY ACTIONS. FREEDOOOOOM!!! Well, not having him in my life isn't that bad after all. Come to think of it.. I have time for my friends and myself. I don't need to focus on just one person :p I'll be dating! Yey. I'm not committed to anyone or anything. I'm free. :)

Thanks babe for letting me have this freedom. Now, we can both be happy! :D I loveD you. :)