Did i do the right thing or not? Damn. My conscience is killing me.. This guilty feeling is driving me insannnnne. I'm so serious man. I told Jet the things i know about Cheska's shitting.. I don't know if i did the right thing.. It's like i've ruined my friend's "love life". I really just can't stand it. If i didn't tell Jet, my conscience will still bother me. Sooo. I have no choice but to stick with what i think is right. I DON'T KNOW. Shiznit.. This is really killing me. If i didn't tell Jet then i will not be a GOOD friend to him.. Cause the fact that he's my "kabarkada" and i let this shit happen to him.. it's not right.. But on the other hand, i'm being a good and trusty friend to Cheska cause i kept her secret even though i know what she's doing is obviously wrong. Okay okay.. Now the thing is, i told Jet. So what's up with that? I became a good friend for telling him and for not making him look stupid. Here's the thing i don't like.. I let my friend down.. her relationship with Jet was ruined because of me, because i told him. Now, if Mara and some other people who are involved knew this.. they will lose their trust on me. What joy. See? Whatever path i take, there's a trap.. i will still not be a good friend. Damn it. Why can't i make it right? I let everbody down. I am such a bad friend. Arrrrgh. YEAH, this thing is affecting me.. BIG TIME! I don't know what to do. I'm so saaad. :'c Yeah i'm crying right now damn it. Hmmm. Whenever i'm not doing anything, this thing just pops up in my mind. So yea, i think about it all the time most especially when I'm playing Sudoku. Damn it. When will this stop?? After I took a bath, i drank 5 sleeping pills just for me to fall asleep and not to think about this crap. IT'S REALLY KILLING ME. I swear.. I'm not kidding. I know it's mababaw but letting my friendS down, it's really a big thing for me. Arrrghh! Just hit me, fucking shit.
